***This novel contains graphic sexual content and harsh language. It is only appropriate for adult readers age 18+.
Have you ever been so angry that hitting things felt good? Or so numb that you actually felt high? The past few years have been like that for me. Traveling between fury and indifference with no stops in between.
Some people hate me for it, while others are scared of me. But none of them can hurt me, because I don't care about anything or anyone.
I love her so much that I hate her. We used to be friends, but I found out that I couldn't trust her or anyone else.
So I hurt her. I pushed her away.
But I still need her. The sight of her centers me, and I can pool all of my anger into her. Engaging her, challenging her, bullying her...they are my food, my air, and the last part of me that feels anything human.
But she left. She went to France for a year, and came back a different girl.
Now, when I push, she pushes back.
In this book we get inside Jared's head. After reading Bully and getting little tidbits of some the things that happened that made him turn against Tate, and seeing some the things he did to her, we now get the full story.
Jared and Tate have been best buds for years. As they grow into their teen years together Jared starts to have more feelings for Tate than just friendship. He decides to visit his dad for the summer and that summer changes everything. When he gets home he can't wait to see Tate, she was what he was looking forward the most, but his first encounter with her doesn't go as planned. Soon he doesn't have enough hours in the day to let out all the the rage he has towards her. He decides terrorizing her is what he'll do! Yes it's perfect right? When she leaves to study abroad he can finally have some respite now that she's not right door, but the year is up too soon, or is it the other way around? Now that she's back things have changed. She's not the same girl. She's still has all of the good qualities she had before, but she now has even more things that catch his attention. He can't stay away but he needs to because his life is so complicated and he doesn't need another distraction.
I loved Jared's point of view! we only got to the cusp of the issues going on with Jared's family in Bully and in Until You we finally get to see why he does some of the things he does. I fell in love with him a little bit more after finishing this story. So many ups and downs, with a brilliant ending!
'Yesterday lasts forever. Tomorrow comes never. Until You.'
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